It's been about 10 days since I've last updated. Ahahah. It seems funny that I actually *know* how long I haven't updated. I used to not bother before. *shrug*

Well, I guess I have been studying 'seriously' in those past 10 (or 11?) days. My 2nd TPM grades were awful. Absolutely horrible. Disappointing. Especially in Math. *bangs head on wall* From 7.75 to 5.00. FIVE. *bangs head on keyboard* OK, so it may be a litte late to complain about that (but hey, one needs to vent his/her frustrations, no?) Yeah. The reason I got that low? Couldn't concentrate. My stomache hurt like hell that time. *sigh* It was my 1st (or 2nd? I don't remember) day of my period. -____- Great huh?

And my other grades of my 2nd TPM.. well, I've already mentioned my English grade in my entry below this one, and.. oh yeah. My Social Studies grade improved by 0.18. I think. My science grade lowered. (From 7 to 6) My PPKN grade improved. (Yay?) Hrmph.. I admit I didn't study hard for the 2nd TPM (and remembering I said that I would study more seriously.. bah. I wonder if I really can't keep my own words).

And now for the 3rd TPM.. YES, I DID try studying seriously, I tried to focus more on my studies and blah blah. But yeah, I get easily distracted by *anything*. FYI, I didn't even go online! Er. Correction. Well. I DID, but only for a few minutes. I keep joking around with my bro's. Although my eyes are on my books my thoughts wander somewhere else. Even though I try memorizing somehting, I keep forgetting. And through my *hard* effort (*snorts*) the 3rd TPM tests still seemed difficult. Argh. Which means, as my mother would say: "You didn't study hard enough then." >___<;

I'm also in whats called "The Best Class" in school, so pretty much it's hard to get into the top ten. -_-; I *do* hope I did fairly well in all of the tests though. Haiks. (I don't think I did myself justice on all the tests except English. Man I'm stupid).

Undergoing all the stress and pressure from school.. here I am, online, updating me blog, chatting (in #japan right now. YURAAA! *glomps yura*) and searching for FICS!!! I am in GREAT need of fics right now. *opens FF.Net* Mwahaha.

Current Mood: Relaxed

Is Currently Listening to: Alive (Jennifer Lopez)

I got two of my TMP results today. Indonesian and English. My Indonesian grades improved. From 7.33 to 9.33. Two points up. Yay for me. Not the highest though. *sigh* And my English.. from 9.17 to 8.83. ... I lost to her. Again. She got 9. She got 6 incorrect, while I got 7. 6 of them were because I was just.. incorrect in answering, and one again because I was careless. Gah. My main weakness. Careless. Impatient. Lazy. Oh, and my math teacher went through the TPM Math problems too today. And I'm pretty sure my grades in Math this 2nd TPM is going to be worse than my grades in the 1st TPM. Well, not that my grade in math in the 1st TPM was bad, it was average. But then, it wasn't satisfying. Mmph.

I dunno why suddenly I'm so into Neopets again. At first I was just intending to play some games there because I was bored, but then I suddenly got this some 'old' obsession to gain more Neopoints. *lol* So here I am now, typing while playing Cheat! on Neopets.

Current Mood: Questioning

Is Currently Listening to: Nothing

Forgot to mention yesterday. I've already bought the Animonster 1st Posterbook Edition! Yay! ^__^ (Though it's kinda late to say it. *lol*) The pin-ups are quite cool.. There are 2 H x H one's! *squeals in delight* There's also a Slam Dunk pin-up (but no poster though) and the image is (I think) the scene where Sakuragi jumps into the judges table to get the ball. And the posters are GREAT! My favourites are the Saiyuki Reload, Get Backers, and Gackt posters. The Gackt poster is SUPER huge! And Gackt looks so sexy na~ *drool* XD XD Plus the folder bonus. On the front cover of the folder, it has Kira and Athrun from Gundam Seed. On the back.. *eyes twinkling* Dark and Daisuke from DN Angel! Too bad there isn't any pin-up/poster with Satoshi in it. *sigh* Actually there's a DN Angel poster too, but it has Risa and Riku in it, which kinda irked me. Not that I dislike them, they're OK really. But I'm a full supporter of DN Angel shounen-ai/yaoi pairings, which of course excludes Risa and Riku. Heheh.

Oh yeah, I found a lot of anime music notes (for the piano) yesterday. ^__^ All thanks to Natsumi from Animechains. Got Scarlet (Ayashi no Ceres), For Real (Saiyuki), Alone(Saiyuki), and Eyes on Me (FFVIII). Scarlet and Alone aren't that hard to play. Just need some practice and I guess I'll be able to play those well. Oh, and I also downloaded 'Moonlight Sonata' music sheet. I love Moonlight Sonata. *sigh* When I listened to the mp3 of it while looking at the notes, I nearly cried. Dunno why. I've heard Moonlight Sonata plenty of times before. Maybe it was because I was looking at the notes too, and I was really 'concentrating' in it. I guess that was the first time a piece of music truly touched me. Beethoven is a genius. Of course, I'm no expert in the piano to judge who's a genius and who's not, but I really do love his music.

Heart of Crystal

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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*looks at description* How true. ^__^; But I dunno if I am 'held near and dear by everyone who loves me'. I hope it's true though.

Current Mood: Excited

Is Currently Listening to: Nothing

Yay, 2nd TPM is over! ^__^ Freedom! Well, not exactly freedom. *sigh* Still have to study and study. I think that's the word that shows up in here in almost every entry. 'Study'. Argh, I'm beginning to get sick of it. -_- I remember when I said in the entry after the 1st TPM, it was something about studying more seriously and dilligently. Am I going to have to say that 'again'? Either I'm trying to motivate myself more, or the 1st attempt of 'studying more seriously and dilligently' didn't work, because I'm pretty sure my 2nd TPM grades won't be better than my 1st ones. ><

Got an e-mail from my ex-classmate, Nadia. T__T I always feel so excited when I get news from my friends in Jakarta, either it's an SMS or an e-mail, or maybe a simple phonecall. I wonder if I'm *that* scared if my friends forget me and stop keeping in touch. *sigh* Already replied and now currently writing an e-mail to Animonster.

I wonder why I keep getting auto-killed when connecting to ChatNet. It keeps saying I have too many spamdrones. I've tried enabling identd and reconnecting, but it still didn't work. =

You are a MASTER of the English language!

While your English is not exactly perfect,
you are still more grammatically correct than
just about every American. Still, there is
always room for improvement...

How grammatically sound are you?
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Stole this from Afuna. *lol* A Master huh? Of course, I wouldn't be a God in grammar. But I thought I'd be a Student, since my grammar isn't too good.. ^^;

Downloaded Birdcage. Wow, the song's beautiful na~! XD

Current Mood: Relieved

Is Currently Listening to: Birdcage (Gackt)

I'm dead. I'm soo dead. Remember when I said I was gonna fail my 1st TPM Math exam? Well, I didn't. (thankfully). But I'm dead sure I'll fail now. *bangs head on keyboard* Argh.

I studied last night, not until laaaate at night though. Already learned my lesson there. I dunno why, but I couldn't seem to concentrate when trying to count and solve the problems. Or maybe it was the exam that was just too difficult (for me). The time limit was 2 hours, and by the time the bell rang 10 minutes before the limit (we're allowed to finish and go out from 10 minutes before) I had only done 23 problems from the total of 40 questions. Bah. After that I didn't bother with the formulas and all, I just circled the answers I thought was right. AKA: wild guessing. -__- Well, not all. Just most of them. Just counted a bit and decided from there (all of the problems were multiple choices) Arg. I'm downright pathetic.

Just when I thought that maybe I could get a better mark in English (English was after the math exam) to cover up my bad ones (math), it turned out to be quite difficult as well. It wasn't difficult as in I didn't understand some meanings of the words used, or grammar problems, but it's just that I had difficulty in choosing the right answer. The exams were all multiple choices, and most of the time I got confused between 2 similiar answers, or 2 alternative answers. (meaning that in my opinion, both of them would do). *pulls hair in frustration* I've always expected myself to get at least a 90, but it seems that I'll have to get prepared to get a 70. *bangs head on wall* Man, I sound so arrogant.

I told my parents that I'd like to have private Math lessons at home, and they said that that's OK. They told my brother to have those lessons too. (Hahah. Man did he get grumpy after hearing that). I asked them to find the teacher for me, but I dunno if they've found one yet. I'm not really weak in math, but by having private lessons I'll have someone to rely on outside school. Hope they'll find one soon, UAN is just next month! ><;;

Am chatting with Ireth now. Hahahah.. Told her that I've been kind of spoiling my blog more than before since using this layout. *nudges her* Ne, make me another one next time? ^___^

Btw, I heard that The Sims 2 has is already out here. *__* Me want!!! ... But that'll just distract me more from studying. Maybe I'll ask my bro to go hunt for it in June. Oh, and the Animonster Posterbook is already out in Jogja! *gleams* Shall go buy it later. Mwahaha.

Current Mood: Active

is Currently Listening to: Nothing

Mmmph, 2nd TPM tomorow, and I'm STILL not studying seriously. Wait, correction. I DID actually study (seriously) yesterday, and a few minutes today. ... ^_^; Dunno why, but I just. Can't. Seem. To. Concentrate. Bah. And no, it's not cos of the compy that's just beside my bed, or my mangas that's spread around in my room, or the H x H vcd's that could be interesting to re-watch. Dunno. Well, I *did* go online for a bit (and now), and I *did* read those mangas, and I *did* rewatch the VCDs.. -__- *bangs head on table* But I DO want to study damnit! It's just that I don't have any strong motivation and need to do it!! Gah. I hate myself. T__T Haiks. Scratch that. I don't hate myself. Arg, I'm not making any sense.

*looks at Cornelia's blog. *sigh* Me want those quizzes. But unfortunately, can not. Hafta study. -_-

Current Mood: (trying to be) Dilligent

Is Currently Listening to: Invisible (Clay Aiken)

Ok, so my 2nd TPM starts tomorrow Tuesday. ... Urgh, dunno what to type.

Have tried to study, but my bro's just won't keep their voices down; I couldn't concentrate lah. -_- Because of that, I'm in a kind of bad mood right now. Gah.

BUT, I visited Angelic Visions, and saw the *beautiful* layouts there. My mood immidiately lifted. I dunno why, I always feel happy when seeing anything that's beautiful, especially if it's something I can't do. XD

Anyways, will start studying again after replying some mails. Oh, and I still have to mail Ireth my mail and address. >< I keep forgetting to do it na~!

Current Mood: Dilligent

Is Currently Listening to: Namida no Hurricane (Get Backers 2nd Ending Theme Song)

There's something weird that's been going on with me lately. I've been really, really, *really* moody. *shakes head* I don't understand. At school, I'm a quite cheerful person. Seriously. I smile a lot, I'm polite, I offer help to my classmates even when they're not asking for it. And it's not made up. I'm not doing that to 'hide my cool and sad heart' or anything like that, it's just that my actions are just like that, it comes out naturally.

My so-called "mood-shift" starts right after school. I wonder if it's because of my school surroundings. You see, every time all classes are over and it's time to go home (yay), THE ROAD OUTSIDE THE SCHOOL IS FUCKING CROWDED, THE WEATHER IS ALWAYS HOT, AND THOUGH THERE ARE SO MANY FUCKING USELESS TREES AROUND I CAN'T SEEM TO BREATHE DAMNIT! *sigh* Never mind, I'm exaggerating. But it's true. Ok, because of that, I instantly get into a bad mood, I get easily pissed off, I always dread WHY my house is so fricking far from my school, why does it have to take about more than 30 minutes to get there.. And though it's only half an hour (it's not really that long, besides, I'm used to the traffic jams back in Jakarta anyway) but since I easily get pissed, well.. you know. I'm always quiet when I get back from school, I feel terribly exhausted, and stressed. Oh, and I also often snap at my bro's, and ignore them. Crying after school seems to becoming a habit for me. Erg.

Ok, end of babbling/ranting/whatever. *looks above* Gawd, there must be plenty of typos and grammar mistakes and incohorrent sentences and.. well, you get the idea. *bangs head on table* Argh, what's wrong with me!? -_-

Chatted with my cousin Thamrin, who's currently working in Singapore. Don't know what's with him, but he suddenly brought out the topic about universities. *blink* Told me to have a 'great spirit' in studying, so I could get into a good one and please my parent's wishes, etc etc. Had nothing against that really, but I suppose it kinda made me.. =/. Well, it knocked some sense into me. I guessed I shouldn't be weeping around and start getting used to this new environment. It'll infect my studying and life. Heh.

Mmm, I wonder why I can't open FF.Net. *shrug* Oh well. Gotta study Math now, wouldn't want to get another red mark on Trigonometi hm, would I? ><

Current Mood: Frustrated

Is Currently Listening to: Namida no Hurricane (Get Backers 2nd Ending Theme Song)

I'm in such a bad mood today. Right after school. I don't know why, but everything has been pissing me off since I came home. I wonder why the heck my school is so far from my school, why the hell there are *so* many subjects at my school (I wonder why my head hasn't even exploded), why am I such a useless person anyway.

I hate my house, I despise my unsensible brothers, I wonder if my parents are clueless or if I'm the one who's been putting on the 'happy' face too often, I wonder why my classmates seem to be having a *great* time, or maybe it's just me. *kills something* I hate myself. *glare* And I guess school would have been *so* much better if it was closer to my house, of if the time schedule when my class goes home were a bit earlier. Or if every time I go home, my brothers *won't* be in my room playing whatever their playing on my PC. ... Or when I'm trying to have a *peaceful* nap after a very stressful day at school, my brothers would be at least a *bit* sensible THAT I NEED A GOD DAMN NAP AND THEIR STUPID SHOUTINGS AROUND THE HOUSE ISN'T HELPING ME ONE FUCKING BIT!!

*sigh* Now that feels so much better. Ok, this one was stolen from Cornelia's blog.

-f a v o r i t e s-
TV SHOW: Do animes count?
CONDITIONER: Nothing in particular
BOOK: Harry Potter
MAGAZINE: Animonster
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Don't drink 'em.
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND?: Sleep, eat, watch TV, go online, go to the bookstore..
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: A lot. There's Linkin Park, Evanescence, Clay Aiken, Alicia Keys, etc etc.

-h a v e y o u-
BROKEN THE LAW: Err.. piracy is a crime. Yeah.
RUN AWAY FROM HOME: No, but I wish I had the guts to. Such a spoilt girl, I am.
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: No.
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: What the heck is that?
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Yeah.. about 3 years ago.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: Nope
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE?: I think so.
FALLEN ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: Nope.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: I think so, when I was in elementary school.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: I guess.

-l o v e-
BOYFRIEND: Nope.
GIRLFRIEND: Er, no.
KISSED THE SAME SEX: ... Never.
CHILDREN: *blink* No.
CURRENT CRUSH: None.
BEEN IN LOVE?: Er, I guess not.
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: Nope. Lucky me.
BEEN HURT?: Hurt because of love, not really.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: My existence? ... Nah. I didn't mean that. I dunno. I regret on a lot of things.

-w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t-
TIME YOU CRIED?: *looks at the time* About an hour ago.
GIG YOU WENT TO?: What in hell is that?
GOT A REAL LETTER?: A looooooooooooong time ago.
GOT AN EMAIL?: I get lots from various ML's I'm in.
THING YOU PURCHASED?: Erm, Animonster?
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED?: *thinks* AFI.
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER?: Arh.. lemme see.. I dunno. -_-

-y o u r t h o u g h t s o n-
TEENAGE SMOKING : Suicide. -_-
SPICE GIRLS: I dunno.

Current Mood: Moody

Is Currently Listening to: Last Piece (GTO 1st Ending Theme Song)

I guess I didn't fail the 1st TPM after all. YAY! ^___^ Because today my teacher was lecturing us about studying and all, and she said that me, the new kid, had managed to squeeze into the ranks. She said that my classmates have to study harder, so I won't catch up or surpass them. She said it'd be embarassing. I think she mentioned that my rank is in the middle, the 12th or something. Ohohoho. Outouf 200 + students. I'm not proud or anything. Just relieved. Fuuh. I'll try to study harder for the 2nd and 3rd TPM. For UAN too. ^_^

Mmm, my dad just bought some Hoka Hoka Bento. I love Hoka Hoka Bento. And I just found out my bro can't use chopsticks. Hehehe.

Speaking of my bro, he just told me some surprising news. Very surprising. He said that his childhood friend from USA is in our school! Whoa. The world IS small after all. *shakes head*

Current Mood: Relieved

Is Currently Listening to: Ichibyou no Refrain (Get Backers 1st Ending Theme Song)

*cough coughs* *blows nose* Haiks. I think I'm gonna get sick. Again. Argh. -_-; And if I remember correctly, I already had flu this month. Or was it lath month? Dun remember. -.-;

Oh, and about studying with Aneng today. We didn't study anything. -__- We watched Hunter x Hunter instead. Just great. *hangs head* But she was the one who wanted to watch anyway. And it's not that I'm complaining; I'd never pass a chance to introduce any anime/manga I like to my friend. *grin* But still.. studying.. *bangs head on table* -_-

Whoa.. I'm chatting to 3 people at once. Wai. ^__^

Current Mood: Sick but Energic

Is Currently Listening to: Hitori no Yoru (GTO 1st Opening Theme Song)

I suppore the studying with Aneng went well. *rubs chin* Maybe. We did get through the 2 first chapters of Physics and Biology of our first year, and we did kind of studied Geography and Economics a bit.. But I guess I couldn't resist the urge to introduce her to Get Backers anime and Hunter x Hunter. ^_^; *sigh* Tomorrow's a holiday, so I hope we could at least go through 3 chapters of PPKn and History.

Btw Ireth, you just realized this layout is great eh? *smirk* Your layouts are always great. Mmm, which means that you'll happily make me a layout again? *grins goofily* ^___^ Sorry again I took such a long time to put it up. About my cell, there was nothing wrong with it, it was just my pulsa was out and I was kinda lazy to fill it ><;; But you could've just SMS-ed me na, then I could've called you! Still what's done is done. But please do call when you happen to visit Jogja again. ^^ Er, I'll email you my phone and add na? Hehe.

I dropped by at Cornelia's blog and I just went O__O;;. Whoa, she blogs MORE than 3 times a day. And she just put up tons of quizzes. *rubs hands gleefully* Quiz time! ^__^

You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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My first reaction: What a beautiful pic~! ^__^ Le'see.. light-hearted, care-free, kind, sensetive, and mysterious eh? Er.. *rubs chin* I'm not entirely sure about that, but YES, I'm kind. *grin* ^_____^ I have friends that absolutely love me? Mmm, I hope they do. I really hope so. Soo.. 'calm and soothing one minute and ragging in anger the next so no one wants to get on your bad side.' *giggles* Calm and soothing? I wonder if I'm like that..

You belong on a lazy-day beach or anywhere where
you can set up a relaxing bench or chair and
watch the world go by. You don't want to make
any changes, watching is enough to make you
content. The blue of the sky and the light of
day beat into your soul and you drift into the
world and around without harming anything or
making any ripples in the fabric of humanity.
Enjoy your peace, few have it, though few would
want it at the cost.

Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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Mm, to be honest I didn't really expect a result like this. Though if I ponder about it more, it is kind of accurate. I love relaxing, I love peace, and I guess just watching things go by without making any changes suits me. *shrug*

And another..

1. Where are you now?
At home, in my room, in front of my compy.

2. What time is it now?
Er... 08:47 pm.

3. Are you feeling happy right now?
I guess.

4. Why?
Because it's Sunday and tomorrow's a holiday too? ^_^

5. Feel sad?
Er.. ^^; No.

6. Why?
Why do you keep asking 'why'? I dunno.

7. Missing someone?
I miss my friends back at Jakarta.

8. Love someone?
I love my family, my friends, I love my teddy bear.. ^^; *lol*

9. Hate someone?
For now? No.

10. Feeling lonely?
Yeah. But I'm already used to it.. kinda~

11. Grumpy?
Sometimes.

12. Cheer up?
I'm not happy, I'm not sad either. But I dunno about 'cheerful'. Hyper maybe. Dunno.

13. What do you want to do now?
Read a bunch of fics, download lots of mp3s, talk with my friends..

14. What you dont want to do?
Go to school on Tuesday. And on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday.. ^__^;; No, I don't hate school. Just don't feel like going there.

15. What do you wish to do?
I wish I could just have a peaceful time without anything bugging my mind to relax. Seriously.

16. Are you in love?
Nope.

17. You're Heartbreak?
I dunno

18. What are you going to do now?
Umm, answer the next questions?

19. Going to meet someone?
Nope. Wait, yeah. Aneng's gonna come over to study again tomorrow.

20. Love your life right now?
.. I guess.

Phew, that was long~ ^_^;

Btw, I wonder why I couldn't find any Greed Island OVA episodes on Kazaalite. Funny really, because I do remember I downloaded the first 3 episodes there and I'm sure I saw downloads for the 4th, 5th, and so on episodes.. Hm.

Edit: Just listened to Acaecilia singing on Y!M. And.. wow. O_O Her voice is so beautiful na~! I wish I could have a voice like her. I like singing, but I know I suck in it. ^^; I wince everytime I listen to my voice singing. Urgh. *cringes*

Edit 2: An old friend from HPI just SMS-ed me. Gotta thank Daniela. Heehee. ^_^ I'm sensing some HPI-evolutioning mission (as so Daniela says) from her. Yah well, I do miss those days in HPI. *sigh* *looks at HPI now* *sighs again*

Current Mood: Calm

Is Currently Listening to: Youkoso Metallic Party (Clamp Campus Detectives 1st Ending Theme Song)

School's not so bad today. Nothing frustrating. I guess. Studied Trigonometri, which wasn't *really* hard, but I had some difficulty in grasping the formula's and such, I guess I'll study more about that tomorrow.

Talking about tomorrow.. a friend of mine who lives near my house is going to come over and we're gonna have this 'study session' together. ... Which I think is a good thing (for me at least) since that if someone's gonna study with me, I wouldn't get distracted by any other things. (Hopefully) ^_^;

Hmm.. my speaker is going bizarre. It keeps blinking green-blank-green-blank-green-blank. When it's on, it's supposed to keep flashing green. I wonder if there's something wrong with it. *rubs chin* I haven't downloaded any new songs; didn't know what to download. Would anyone recommend me some songs?

Currently chatting with tsu now. Hm, haven't chatted with him in a long time. Said that Ginz contacted him yesterday. Cool. Haven't met Ginz in a long time either. A very long time. I wonder when was the last time I chatted with her; it was like.. 2, 3 years ago? *chuckles* And Kitty too. Tsu said that Kitty could enter the medical department, and that she's studying hard right now. Really hard. He told me that Kitty was online from a library, and she planned to study 4 hours straight (or more) after that. OK, maybe to some people 4 hours isn't *that* long, but it's long enough (or too long) for a type of person like me. *sigh* She puts so much effort in her studies, different from a certain lazy-ass typing in front of her computer right here. *hides face in shame* Hope I'll be able to catch her online some time.

Oh, and I chatted with Yu-chan today too. Wasn't a really long chat, but nice nevertheless.

Current Mood: Lazy

Is Currently Listening to: Nothing

Kyaa, I'm really relieved right now. I didn't fail Indonesian and PPKn! ^__^ Yaay! OK, so my grades weren't great (at all) but it weren't bad either. Not least then 70. ^^; Yesh, I'm relieved; not proud though. I did average I guess, which means I have to study harder. *sigh* Oh, and did I mention my most of my classmates didn't get *really* great either? *lol* I'm being pathetic. *bangs head on wall*

I'm still waiting for the results of my IPA (Biology & Physics) and IPS (Geography, Economy, & History) results. I really hope I at least scored more than 60. ^^; I do realize I didn't give my best effort in those 2. *hides face in shame*

My Indonesian teacher gave me 2 sites regarding UAN informations. www.pendidikan.co.id and www.puspendik.com I wonder why the 1st one didn't work. The 2nd one is pretty neat I must say, I got the info on what we're gonna be tested on our Indonesian, English, and Math exam. Hrm. Also the schedule. I dunno if it's accurate though. *shrug*

Been looking at my old blog entries in Xanga. I wonder why I sound very, very.. genki. *blink blinks* x_X I sound like a brat. *lol* I still sound like a brat. Never mind. Mmm, maybe I'll study Geography after Getbackers.. yeah.. *looks again at her old blog* And I sound like an idiot. -_-

Current Mood: Lazy

Is Currently Listening to: Namida no Hurricane (Get Backets 2nd Ending Theme)

*sigh* Why is that I am what I am? I wonder why I can't be a more *perfect* person, why can't I use my abilities better? Why am I this.. this stupid person who can't decide and make a difference in what's good and bad for her? *shakes head*

I dunno why I'm such in a bad mood right now, I was OK a few minutes before. Well, no. My bad mood started when I had math in class. For the 1st TPM, 2 people got perfect scores. Just great. It's not that I expected to be the one of the people who got that score, it's just that I didn't expect someone who's equal at me in math, or maybe lower, or.. well, would get a better score than me. It's not that she's stupid, or she's just average, she's pretty smart actually. But I *know* I'm not stupid or just average either. I dunno. I don't really know her. And besides, I get all these hints that a lot of people didn't get really good grades, and I have this feeling I'm one of them. Just great. Bah.

What made my bad mood sink lower is that it's not me who got one of the highest scores in English. I may sound arrogant now, but it's the truth. I'm not saying my English is oh-so-great, I suck actually. But English here in Indonesia is waaay too easy. And it's the truth. A girl in the acceleration class got the highest. I was OK with this actually, I mean, she IS in *the* acceleration class, a class with super smart and dilligent people. Ok. The other one is a girl from my class, Shelma. She's pretty good actually. But as far as I'm concerned, I always get higher scores than her in regular tests, and I'm far more active in class. *blink* Man, I sound REALLY arrogant now. *bangs head on table* I dunno, I guess I'm just used to get the highest or one of the highest grades in English. .... T__T

So.. what's the answer to all of this? Easy. There's always a sky above a sky. *blink* That didn't sound cool. Hh. It's an Indonesian quote (I think), just tried to translate it into Enligh. But still.. The acceleration girl had 1 answer incorrect, Shelma had 5 incorrect.. But in English class we went through the exam, and I found that I had 3 incorrect. I'm sure of it, I'm not lying. It's either I mis-wrote something, or the teacher mis-corrected my paper. -_____-

I hate myself. .... No, I actually don't hate myself. I dunno. How many times I've said I dunno? I dunno. ..... *bangs head on wall* I *did* put a lot of effort in this 1st TPM, but WHY are my grades sinking lower!? Easy. I didn't put *enough* effort. Bah. I feel like crap. *cries* I shouldn't be feeling like this, especially over stupid TPM grades. There's still the 2nd and 3rd TPM. ...

I'm downloading Bon Bon Blanco; Getbackers 2nd Ending. WHY is the file size so big? -_-

Edit: WTF!? I DOWNLOADED THE WRONG SONG! So I spent 45 DAMN MINUTES DOWNLOADING THIS... this.. ARGH. -_-

Current Mood: Denial

Is Currently Listening to: Shizuku (GTO 2nd Ending Theme Song)

.. I wonder why I couldn't open pitas yesterday. Hh.

Just got home. I think I'm gonna fail this first TPM. -_- *bangs head on table* Again I ask, why is that most of the parts I study didn't come out? My head almost exploded studying muscles and skeletones and blood and.. well, you get my drift. AND NONE OF THEM WERE IN THE EXAMS! Argh. Instead what came out in the biology exam were all the 1st year stuffs and all. *growls* I thought most that would come out were what we studied in our 2nd and 3rd year, because I spent last night studying the previous UAN exams and most of what came out were the things we studied in 2nd and 3rd year. *blink* ... Man I'm being repititive today.

Mental Note to Self: Never. Ever. Study math until waaaaaaaaaaay late at night. -___- Yesterday I had math, so the night before I worked brain out doing lots of math problems until midnight. The next day, I was so sleepy I couldn't concentrate. There were total of 40 problems to solve, and I usually skip the ones what were difficult. When I reached number 40, I just realized I've only managed answering 19 numbers. How pathetic. *grumble* I'm gonna fail, I'm gonna fail.. T_T

So.. I don't think I did really well on my 1st TPM, so from now on I'm gonna try to study every day for at least 2 hours. *blink* Yea, right. I never really liked studying *hard*. Well, I guess that's gotta change. Hrrmm.

Anyways.. yeah.. well.. That's it for now. X_X

Current Mood: Relieved

Is Currently Listening to: Shizuku (GTO 2nd Ending Theme)

Got home a few hours ago. The tests wasn't really bad. I hope I at least scrapped an 80 in Indonesian, but I don't think I did myself justice in Social Studies. *sigh* I did the essay questions fine, dunno with the multiple choices.. *bangs head on wall* Why is it that most of the things I studied didn't come out!? And why do the schools here in Jogja combine the tests of Geography, History, and Economy? My head felt like it was gonna burst yesterday..

Just finished downloading the first opening theme song of Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex. But why is it only 1:30 minutes long? Hemm, should've downloaded the larger version I guess. *sigh* Oh well. Will do it tomorrow. Hafta study Math now.

Edit: Yay, I've finally CHANGED the layout! ^____^ Again, I must say that I absolutely LOVE this one! *slurp* Killua-chan, you're so.. so.. cool na~! ^-^ Ireth, you ROCK na! ^_____^ *huggletackleglompzIreth* (Btw, why didn't you tell you went to Jogja lah?)
Oh, and I've already downloaded the full version of Inner Uniserve (Ghost in the Shell: S.A.C) Yay.

Current Mood: Tired

Is Currently Listening to: Inner Universe (Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex)